This woman had the most beautiful tattoos on the top sides of both of her hands. As far as I know she had never yet been with a man. It's not that she wasn't attractive, she was beautiful, but it's the way that she interacted. On the right hand she had a tattoo of a nude girl, she claimed it is what God resembled. But on the left she had a mirrored image of the same female and this one, she explained, looked like the devil. I was watching her touch her own breasts, how the tattoos smiled as they stared down her stomach, as if anticipating would they be allowed to caress -- The sweet flower that they both seemed to hunger. Now maybe I was high but it felt so right: heaven and hell both take to this woman's womb. It didn't make sense how she could commence touching herself with me in the same room. Now if I've learned anything in my years, I learned I no longer believe in surprise. But what happened next, damn near stole my tears, the tattoos came alive right in front of my eyes.

Was it all just a dream?..                                 

Are you there, God? It's me, Chelle. I just have one little question, ok.

...Who am I supposed to be?

If you could get back to me as soon as you can, that'd be great. Thanks.

Amen.

We'll fall just like stars being hung by only string
Everything, everything, here is gone
No map can direct how to ever make it home

Goodbye.

I'll miss you.

Intoxicated with desire, and she's the designated driver.  Usually it's me in the driver's seat --But I don't let anyone touch me.-- I'll start shaking if she touches me, I'm scared. --But I'll never let anyone see that I'm afraid-- In the car, at the party, she's got her hands on my body.."Don't fight it if you like it". In a room, on a table-top.."If it feels good, don't stop. Don't fight it if you like it". --But this body, this weakness doesn't deserve to be touched.-- She doesn't slow down. My head is spinning around.    Stop. This isn't me you're touching, it's my cage.  Intoxicated with desire, and I'm the drunk driver, longing to let her touch me. --But I'll fight it, even if I like it-- Keep your hands in my hands; the only place you can physically find me. The only place I am until the rest of me is free.  --But will I ever be?--

The waves of complexity have taken you away, washed you into a sea of self-hatred. If I could eat your problem away, I would. But I can't. You have to eat it yourself. But isn't that the problem? I want to steal you from your blind grave so you can see yourself again. Live , again. Steer you towards truth; where the mirror reflects actuality instead of self-conceived lies. But how? How can I bring you back from the dead? So that two ravens, secretly in a room; their sky, can fly once again. Mais cette fois-ci, amongst verity and above reality; where I could, indeed, let you know  that you're beautiful.

I've let your tiny mind magnify my agony.
And it's left me with a numbing dependency for sanity.

--

"They stood gazing at eachother, as her stomach began to feel funny again...To her, it felt like a lake of warmth flooding up from her abdomen and across her chest. It spread like the 180-proof, fiery flood of a mint-green Finnish liqueur. With the pumping of two efficient glands in her neck, it heated her face. And then the warmth got other ideas and started spreading into places a girl like her wouldn't allow it to go, and she broke off the stare and turned away.."     -Jeffrey Eugenides, Middlesex

Just kiss me at the gate, like none of this had ever happened...

It's you. And me; moving at the speed of light into eternity.
Tonight is the night, to join me in the middle of ecstasy..
Feel the melody and the rhythm of the music around you, around you.
I'll take you there, so don't be scared, I'm right here.
Are you ready? We can go anywhere..
But first, take my hand, come with me.
It's like I've waited my whole life for this one night
It's gonna be me, you and the dancefloor..
Cause we've only got one night, double your pleasure, double your fun..
..And dance forever.
All you've got to do is watch me, look what I can do with my feet.
Just feel the beat inside me. I just need you to trust me, I won't let you fall.
Tonight, we'll dance forever..